Becoming Vulnerable
Don’t know if I’m coming or going - taking off or landing
My exploration of all things esoteric led me to a workshop in May, titled “Next Level Healer” facilitated and presented by Lee Harris, an intuitive, empath, musician and channeller of the Zs. The experience added an element of transformation that was not anticipated and I’m grateful to have landed inside the opportunity.
Also, my daily morning ritual of reading and meditation continues to offer and bring forward numerous new insights. Then an Akashic reading with Kathryn Babson took place in early June with encouragement to step out of fear and self-doubt and move into “just go do it”. And, today seems to be that day to “just go do it“ so thank you Kathryn!
So, for this post I am setting aside my modus operandi of “comparison“ and sharing what came forward in that practice this morning.
“To share, loving heart and soul energy”. That is the message I received during meditation this morning. And, to extend that gift through writing. There is no need to be fearful because whatever words come forward will be coming from source and all that is. In truth, the words are not mine. They arrive in my mind, but they are placed there by source and all that is. So, my “job“, as part of my soul agreement, is simply to share what is being revealed in these “Perfectly on Time“ moments of clarity, reflection, understanding, and intention. Surrender and trust. This is your heart and soul speaking, not ego. Healing. Healing is taking place both within the human suit/vessel you currently occupy and at the same time the connection to the collective is expanding that healing energy and creating a ripple effect that will spread far and wide. Thank you source, all that is, and I invite you to walk with me today as I step forward to continue practising “doing the next right thing“ and sharing that loving heart and soul energy through encouragement, kindness, care, and compassion.
Living in the Dash
Last fall, I drafted this post beginning with:
Here’s a truth being presented to me in this “Perfectly on Time” moment. I have an “exit” date. Yep - as in a day when I will no longer inhabit a human-suit and be experiencing this earth-school story as I understand it. Not to be morbid, fear-mongering, woe-is-me, or anxious in any way. Rather, to suddenly give thought to what kind of “Perfectly on Time” moments I would like to influence with the possibility of adding a positive and encouraging spin.
In 1996 Linda Ellis wrote a poem that impacted millions - The Dash. In 2014 she published Live Your Dash which from my view provided an additional approach that seems to support my question of “what kind of a legacy would my soul like to bequeath to those who have walked with me, talked with me, journeyed with me, shared vulnerable moments with me, nurtured me, loved me, embraced me, challenged me, annoyed me, frustrated me, angered me, hurt me” …. it’s an impossible list to finish. However, I am very clearly seeing how short my own “dash“ has become which seems to be leading me toward yet one more level of understanding.
And poof! Suddenly there appears a serendipitous connection between this old draft of a post and my journalling experience of this morning.
WHAT IF … this life I’ve lived, am presently living and may continue to live for an undetermined time is simply about embracing my particular “story”?
WHAT IF all that’s required is to surrender and trust that there IS a “higher version of myself” that is present ALL the time?
WHAT IF it’s about “practicing” that pause in order to remember that I’m a “spiritual being having a human experience”?
WHAT IF stepping into that “altered state of consciousness” truly extends and expands the sharing of “heart and soul energy”?
WHAT IF, even if for only ONE “Perfectly on Time” moment, the “universal collective”, experiences the ripple effect of that energy?
Yes, I’m very aware that these are lofty ideals. Particularly when I step back and try to be the observer, not the participant, in the ongoing drama being played out in our world. However, it seems I have arrived at that place of “And we have ceased fighting anything or anyone“ as often referenced in 12 step circles. And, just for today and this “Perfectly on Time“ moment that’s what I’m choosing.
A Few Dash Events
New Zealand
The universe conspired! A good friend and I travelled to New Zealand from January 28 to March 2, 2025. This was not a long planning process. Mutual friends were going home to visit family and suggested they would like to act as our “Tiki Tiki Tour Guides”. Everything just flowed and fell together within about a two week period. The trip was amazing and left me with a “bright light” consideration that there may be more travel adventures patiently waiting around the corner. If I was 15 years younger I would seriously consider moving there!
Unknown Family Connections
Another universe conspiracy … LOL. In May this year, an introduction to two half-nieces was orchestrated and I was reminded once again that there are no coincidences. We truly do receive, what we receive, when we receive it, in that moment of openness and willingness. DNA results were the driving force in the unfolding of this part of our stories. Their query to me via ancestry.ca had been sitting since November last year. In truth, I don’t even know how it landed in my mailbox in May but there it was. And, I’m pretty convinced it wasn’t MY decision to answer - as my mentor Gladys used to say “the hidden hand was in the mix”.
And almost unbelievably it turned out that I was actually the missing link to their own exploration and research looking for their mother’s biological father. Yep - you’ve probably already guessed - he was also my biological father. Serendipity of the first order and the parallels and similarities between their mum(my half-sister) and me are truly astounding.
The uncovering has revealed there are/were five siblings. Three attached to two marriages and two not attached to marriages. I’ve decided to identify him as a “producer” not necessarily a “director”. 😉
Elements for a “soap opera” or podcast of some sort seem to abound but the bottom line is that we’re all delighted to have made the connection!
Another trip or two
I am just now home from a visit with family in Ontario, where that photo of the Swan landed in my camera view. In truth I don’t know if the swan was landing or taking off but it was a great “fit” for this post.
A granddaughter was visiting at the same time and our stay overlapped by about four days. One day she said, “Hey Grandma, there’s a special to go to Rome. Are you interested? I laughed and said “of course“ but in truth was not ready to make a decision in that moment. About four days later though, she sent me another text that there was still a special and I swear that the conspirator was again present. I sent back a “YES” and the trip was booked in less than half an hour - another significant “Dash” event!
I have often referred to this granddaughter as my “little wise woman in training“. Seems that the younger and the elder are going to invade Rome for 10 days with a view to seeing what kind of splash we might make, including a cooking class to learn about creating Italian culinary delights. 🥳
Hummingbird Magic
And, to end this writing, as I sit here re-entering into my own time zone I can see my hummingbird feeder through the window. The most beautiful little one has visited 12-15 times today, each time taking BIG drinks.
There are many mythological stories about hummingbirds and it gives me a lovely sense of comfort to think that perhaps my Donald James is sending me a sign and a message that all is well, that he remains nearby, AND that he approves of the new magical memories that are being created.
As always, thank you for joining me as I meander and muse through the continual unfolding of these “Perfectly on Time” reflections, memories and new awakenings.
If you have a question, or would like to leave a comment, I will respond. I remain a strong proponent of “establishing and maintaining connections” and perhaps mutual engagement will lift us to new heights.
Your swan and hummingbird photos are lovely! Thank you for introducing me to “The Dash.” I have a cat named Dasha, who will serve as a delightful reminder to use my time wisely.
Thanks for sharing, love the Swan and Hummingbird. Another adventure awaits, how wonderful